Don’t let your struggle become your identity.
Losing weight is not your life’s work, and counting calories is not the call of your soul. You surely are destined for something much greater, much bigger, than shedding 20 pounds or tallying calories.
What would happen if, instead of worrying about what you had for breakfast, you focused instead on becoming exquisitely comfortable with who you are as a person? Instead of scrutinizing yourself in the mirror, looking for every bump and bulge, you turned your gaze inward?
“Living On Air” BBC Documentary on Anorexia and Bulimia.
trigger warning: extremely anorexic bodies shown please watch with caution!!
This is are really interesting documentary about eating disorders. It talks about early research into eating disorders in 1950s and its consequences in treatment today. It really busts some myths like the fact eating disorders are considered a “modern illness”. Really informative and worth a watch.
friendly reminder that your body is a small aspect of your whole being and that you are comprised of so much more than how you look in the mirror~(✿◠‿◠) (◉‿◉✿)(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ
Treat yourself like you would a best friend. Treat yourself like you would a sister or brother. Treat yourself like you would your future son or daughter. You wouldn’t want them to feel like they’re not enough. You wouldn’t want them to crumble to their knees in tears at the sight of their own reflection. You wouldn’t want them to suffer in silence.
Treat yourself like you’re a person who deserves love and care because that’s what you are.
Science of Eating Disorders++: Emotional intelligence in anorexia nervosa: Is anxiety a missing piece of the puzzle?
Problematic emotional processing has been implicated in the genesis and maintenance of anorexia nervosa (AN). This study built on existing research and explored performance-based emotional intelligence (EI) in people with AN.
Compared to HC women, the AN group demonstrated significantly lower…
“to the anon who asked about the maintenance admission lacking validity: I was hospitalized twice and then sent to a residential for five months. I almost died.
I’ve never been more than two pounds underweight.”
I am at a healthy weight but have steadily been losing weight for the last few months. In 2011/12 I was in hospital and underweight. My doctor and team want me to go into hospital for a maintenance admission but because my weight is normal I feel like I'm a fraud if I do go into hospital and like everyone else will think I am lying. I am struggling but I don't know what to do.
I was in hospital with a couple different girls who were there on a maintenance admission, and I did not for one second think that they were lying about their struggles. The severity of a persons struggle has no relation to what their weight is, even though I know that our eating disorders work very hard to convince us otherwise.
I can say with 100% certainty that your team would not suggest a hospital admission if they didn’t think that it was needed. And I think that you would not be so torn about what to do if you didn’t want to go in. It sounds to me like YOU (not the you clouded by the ED and by the perceived judgements of others, but the true YOU) want to get better, and you want to take the admission. And even though you don’t know me from Eve, I think that you should go in. It might be difficult to work through the internal struggles that come with being a healthy weight, but that in itself is an important thing to work on.
You are amazing, and smart and talented and YOU DESERVE RECOVERY. Listen to your team, and take every opportunity for treatment that you can get. And if you feel like people are judging you, try to remind yourself that their judgement in THEIR problem. It has nothing to do with you.