Why don't you want to post the behaviors you still struggle with? (Ed wise)
Because I see absolutely nothing positive coming from positing them. I don’t know why I used to post personal things (especially eating-related things due to the competitive nature of the disorder). Anyone can just as easily write the behaviors in a journal, or talk to a professional if they have that available to them. I understand the view of the whole it’s-my-blog-I-post-what-I-want, and by all means do. But I’m questioning why. Posting SPECIFIC caloric intakes, or exercise can essentially only do two things:
- Potentially lead others to have concern for how you are doing, which can be innocent enough- but even so the concern would be based off of the specific behaviors shared (essentially their severity) and I personally don’t want “support” based off of how “severe” things sound.
- Offer the means for online validation that you have a “problem” and in a way is showing off what’s going on- intentionally or unintentionally. Eating disorders especially are competitive by nature and sharing information that will no doubt be triggering to at least one person, is in my opinion naive, and selfish because even for your ~own purposes~ you can easily write that information down in your own private way if you want to “remember it” OR if you feel the burning desire to share what’s happening there’s no need for specific numbers and details etc.
I’m not attacking anyone by any means what so ever, and I’m not trying to tell anyone what do to. I’m just questioning the reasoning behind people who choose to participate in this, and I’m sharing with you so that you understand why I choose not to anymore. I used to a lot, but now every time I post something, I ask myself the “Why am I choosing to post this?” and “What benefit OR detriment will this have to me or others?” (the answer for the reason behind could be as simple as- because it’s funny, or it makes my blog look nice it or whatever, which is a good enough reason as any). BUT if the answer in my head is a disordered one, I save the post as a draft, or just flat out delete it.