You have to learn to stop treating yourself like a recipe. “A little more of this and a little less of that and add in a touch of this and then I’ll be satisfied” no. No, you are a human being made up of imperfections and things that just don’t fit quite right and that’s how it’s supposed to be….
Today is over. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be better. Just breathe.
I ate pizza and ice cream today and I feel so gross and unhealthy :/
pizza is great. ice cream is great, and most importantly so are you. the only thing that is ‘unhealthy’ is allowing the food you consume to make you think/feel any less of yourself.
This very interesting, informative, and enlightening— highly recommend.
Hello my dears,
Most of you will have probably forgotten me by now, but I felt like I owed you all an explanation for my lack of involvement with this blog as of late. There are two reasons for me having not posted anything recently (for the last six months, really) and being very slow with email replies (I’m so sorry about that): firstly, I can barely make myself think about eating disorders now — I’ve just completely moved on, I guess — and secondly, I’ve been very, very busy with school lately. I hope that’s okay.
I do think about you all a lot, though, and I always, always read the things you send / email me. Always. It’s just that eating disorders really feel irrelevant to my life now, and all I want is to leave them behind, completely — I hope you will all understand that. Someday, I hope you all get to this point, too — when you’re honestly just bored to death of eating disorders. It really does feel liberating.
I’ll be tidying this blog up over the next couple of weeks to really organise all the writing I’ve done for it since mid-2012, so that you all will always have somewhere to go and something to read if things ever get tough, even when I’m long gone (from Tumblr). For now, though, I hope the resources page and the FAQ page can help you.
All my love, and best wishes —
Kate / kelixir
You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It won’t happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me, I’m moving on with my life.
healthy pancake: banana, kale, and egg white just mash them up and ta-da!!!!!
lololol just kidding, this is a 100% regular pancake, with butter, flour and everything else that makes a pancake a pancake!
adorned with strawberries and of course accompanied with a lovely cup of coffee
this is what breakfast is about, also a reminder that there is no “right” or “wrong” way to eat or in a greater sense—there is no right or wrong way to recover.
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Bottom line: don’t revert back to old behaviors to lose weight as if it’s “no big deal,” because inevitably you will have to gain it back, and with that you will also gain back the distorted body image and insecurity that you thought you left behind
It is okay for me to eat. It is okay for me to listen to my body. If I binge, that’s okay too. It’s okay for me to feel full and bloated. Because it will all balance out as I eat more and more consistently. I just need to persevere through this uncomfortable stage. I need to eat to get my life back.